Merry Christmas!!!

Hello there boys and girls!

Just dropped by to say Merry Christmas!!! Have a wonderful Holidays!

Ciao!

Sitting in a Cafe in the Metro

-Irony-

Where once shambles stood
Where none but dirty, battered feet
set foot
Now none can be found
Where once poverty lay
Where none could be safe from
the violent melee
Now riches abound
Where one would be appalled
By the sight of generations
of misery
Now will be awed
By the indifference
The duplicity
The joylessness
The disgusting opulence
of carefree souls
Hovering over the grounds
of battered hopes
of broken dreams
of dismal lives
Spoiled by their riches
Blinded by the glare of a life of
comfort
Which is more sad?
Man's inability to care
Or his stubborn unwillingness to share?

Climate Crisis

Hello there boys and girls...

We're having an event next Saturday, just thought I'd share...



What: Climate Crisis: Club Party for a Cause

When: July 7, 2007 (7/707)
7:00 PM

Where: Club Industry, Tomas Morato, Quezon City

Why: To raise awareness on the effects of Global Warming and what we can do to help

Who: Top executives, young professionals, celebrities, and politicians



Reduce your carbon footprint now. Help save our planet. Stop Global Warming.
check it out - http://www.theasianalliance.org

Bum...

Yes folks, the inevitable has happened. I've graduated and finished college. And now I don't have a job. This scenario is quite far from what I have envisioned three or four years ago, even 3 months ago, but here it is. What to do? Indeed, what to do?

I've applied at a couple of companies, have a couple of interviews next week, missed a couple more last week, and all in all, still no signs of success. The company I've been dreaming of starting is still in my dreams. I have no funds, no suppliers, no staff, and basically, no company. I still have the idea though, sleeping in my head, and in the heads of four other like-minded individuals who are suffering the same fate as me.

Is it my fault? Is it their fault? I don't know. Maybe I just lost steam. Maybe we all lost steam (damn BA142). The question that lurks at the back of my mind now is: "How can I get back on track again?"

Several possibilities are forming in my ever-active mind.
1] I fall madly in love with a mysterious girl and she is kind enough to return the favor. (this scenario will do wonders for my already tattered ego and, of course, heart)
2] I get a call from a mysterious employer offering me a high-paying, highly exciting job and that I can start right away.
3] I win the lottery, thus giving me enough capital to jump-start my business.
4] My grandfather closes his financing deal, re-open our sugar mill, manufacture ethanol, and thus making me the richest 23 year-old single male in the whole of Bacolod. (as if....)


All in all, I'm not hopeful. Anybody know anybody who wants a young, brilliant, good-looking, romantic, and energetic new face in their company? Please please please, give me a call... LOL! ^___^

sunday bloody sunday...

Hello there boys and girls,

Its been another while hasn't it? and as always, I would ask if anybody missed me... Probably not. But, that's the way it is... I've been meaning to write for quite some time now. But its like everytime I look at the blank space of a new entry, I lose all strength and just give up.

I am graduating 20 days from now, on my 23rd birthday. I should be happy. I should be ecstatic. But for the life of me, I am not. And I don't know why. I always dreamed of the moment that I would finish college, dreamed of going up that stage and hearing my name being called. I always tried to do my best so that I wouldn't just graduate, but graduate at the top of my class.

I will... I'm at the top of my course. I will graduate Cum Laude this summer. I have fulfilled my goal. I should be proud of myself.

But why do I feel so empty? Why do I feel so utterly alone? Even in this place where I am surrounded by friends and my siblings who love me. Why do I feel emptiness in my heart?

When I started this journey, I offered whatever I would gain to someone. I swore that whatever I achieved, it was for that one person.

Now that its over, it feels like everything that I worked for was for naught. Now that its over, I feel that the hardships and the triumphs do not mean anything anymore. Because it was for you. But now you are gone.

I wish it was as easy as finding someone new and offering everything up to that person in place of the one I lost. But its not.

It is so damn hard.

And I feel so damn frustrated and empty and alone and sad and f***ing angry at mysel for not having had the strength to pull myself together and carry us to the end.

Is it too late?

It is Palm Sunday today. It is the day the Lord entered Jerusalem, in full knowledge of his coming death. Today the wave at Him in celebration, in a few days they ask for his death. "Forgive them... they know not what they do."

Congratulations Graduates

There are times when I just feel so... tired... and a few weeks away from the end of college, I find myself feeling just... wasting away...


They gave me a pen
and taught me how to write
They gave me a mind
and taught me how to think
But you think
Before you write
They gave me a voice
and taught me how to speak
They gave me a heart
And i knew what it was to feel
So I feel
Before I speak
And speak what I feel
And write what I think
Think, then speak
Feel, then write
And now I write, speak, feel, think
All at once
But sometimes not at all

-Learning

for you...

I wrote this for a girl...I never really told her about it... But here it is now... I hope you like it...


when the day
is far too young
when the darkness
still envelops
i raise my song
slowly, and mournful
longing
for the rising sun
would I feel safe
would I feel comfort
would I feel happiness
when I am bathed in this light
if only I could feel its heat
its warmth
to thaw my frozen heart
yet there is hope
for there you are
and I feel safe
safely comfortable
comfortably happy
in this cold
and lonely place
when the day is no longer young
you are my sunlight

-Sun
-April 4, 2006
-1:18 AM