Friday, April 28, 2006

pare

juxtapose it relevantly pare... and roll it out properly... because we do not exist in a void...
for the Truth will set you free...

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

now what?

I have absloutely no idea what to do...

I'm like a nomad of life... just drifting... aimless...

So much to juggle, with so little to juggle it with...

the paradoxes... due diligence... paradigm shifts ablaze...

*sigh*

poetry poetry....

permanent family?

what's the difference between what is broken
and what is whole?
is it

the sunday morning walks?
the father kissing the mother before
going to sleep at night
opening presents
on Christmas morning, the memory
of Mother and the Santa
by the christmas tree

the child doesn't know
not until
the family is gone
the hen has fled the coop
the marriage bed gone cold

what do they care?
a future has been broken.

"Family Planning"
-9:54 AM
-04/23/2006

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Tue, Aug. 17th, 2004, 09:23 pm
Waiting in Earnest

I've been waiting in earnest
Since daybreak today
to see you
Last night I was sleepless
like the nights before
Anxiously waiting
to see you
I ask myself why
I have this yearning
to see you
I dream
About the things I want to say
I think
About the things we will do
I smile
When I turn my thoughts
to the laughs that we will share
I sigh
With just the thought
That I would get
To see you

How I spent my birthday

hello again boys and girls...

it's the weekend and I just celebrated my birthday...
I'd have to say that its one of my most interesting ones so far...

it started exactly at midnight of the 21st and continued on to the end of the day... and boy how it started... ^_^

Loree and I went inside Starbucks because I told her that I didn't want to spend my birthday on the street in a jeepney... I was with Loree by the way because we were accomplishing our clearance forms at work... anyways, we just sat there for 5 minutes and stared at my watch until the clock struck 12... ^_^

then we went to Greenbelt... We originally planned to just eat at some restaurant in Greenbelt, but as luck would have it, the only place open was Burger King and Bubba Gumps... I didn't want to spend my birthday at BK, and I'm allergic to shrimp... so that was that... nice...

add to that the fact that we had to go around Greenbelt 1 to get to Greenbelt 3 because there was a construction thing going on where people usually pass through to get there... There we were, walking the deserted nighttime streets of Makati on my 22nd birthday, and amazingly, we were actually having fun!

so we finally got to GB3... well guess what... the ticket booths were already closed! I forgot that tickets should be bought earlier even if the movie is shown at 1am... so the movie thing was scrapped...

so we went down to the ground floor... and what a sight! Cafe Havana was overflowing with people! what in the world is going on? we asked ourselves... so we went inside... the music was pounding, and the people were laughing, and I said to Loree, "tara, dito na lang... ^_^"

and so we stayed... ^_^ we ordered Calamares, and two beers... the waitress offered us the "Drink of the Month", and because it was my birthday, we ordered that as well... ^_^

we stayed at Cafe Havana until around 3 in the morning, just hanging out, and talking... then I took Loree home...

Then I remembered, I have to go to school at 9am! So, bleary eyed and tired, I went to class until 12 noon, had lunch with my friends, and went home...

Later that night, my dad, my sister and I went to this local steak and burger joint to meet up with my friends to continue my birthday celebration... I had rib eye, my sister had a pork slab, my dad had a T bone, and my best friend had a lamb steak... it was really good.. ^_^ The rib eye was well done, and there was a lot of butter, and the corn was sweet, it was great!

So we stayed there and drank a few beers, hung out, and just talked about future plans... my dad was there, and that made everything all the more special because he just came home from baguio and I haven't seen him in about a year...

text messages from friends abound, and Joe gave me a mouse for my laptop, Eliza gave me a letter (as always)... then the clock struck 12, and so ended my birthday...

we walked home that night... my friends, and my family...

it was simple, but it was one of my happiest birthdays... mainly because of the great beginning... ^_^

makes me wonder how the next one will turn out...

well, just wanted to share... till next time.. ^_^

ciao!

Monday, April 17, 2006

Holy Matrimony!

hello again boys and girls... miss me? probably not.

I've been away from the world for about a week or so... I was at wedding land... the land of flowers and veils and candles and bad food, worse music, great drinks (Alfonso I any one?), sleepless nights and mind-blowing, energy-draining, tongue-in-cheek wedding coordinators who apparently don't coordinate very well...

No, I was not the one who got married... thank GOD! My beloved playboy uncle who shocked us all with the news that he's FINALLY settling down... and I'm so very happy for him...

I played the role of secondary sponsor... the guy who puts the cord around his neck, symbolizing that he is forever "tied" to his wife... (if you ask me, it was like placing a noose around his neck ^_^)

Then I became the assistant of the wedding coordinator... GAWD!

Imagine this: I was in three piece suit, under the hot summer sun, walking around with a box of posies, distributing them to people I don't know, sweating like a pig being roasted in Cebu, going to and from the church because we had to do an "entrance" while my partner (who seemed like such a bitch) rolled her eyes upon seeing me because my hair was a mess and my face was sweating from the heat and all the walking around.

The wedding was nice though... it was simple, it was elegant, and it was on Easter!

Then came the reception... I planned to change clothes before the reception because I was emceeing it at the insistence of my uncle (the groom)... but lo and behold! we had to do another "entrance" and I was not allowed to change clothes... so there I was, under the cruel lens of the camera crew, still sweating from the heat of the unventilated hallway, doing an "entrance"...

A lot of other stuff that I don't want to talk about anymore happened after that... Needless to say, I was glad that it was over, and got myself happily drunk courtesy of my good friend, Alfonso I... ^_^

In all seriousness though, I loved the wedding. I loved the fact that my uncle was finally getting married. I almost cried at the wedding... but it wouldn't look good for a guy in a three-piece suit to go bawling out in a church full of people he doesn't even know... so I held back my tears, and rejoiced in the fact that my beloved uncle is getting hooked... ^_^

It made me wonder about my wedding... what would look like? where will it be? will it be as chaotic?

Who will be my bride?

I don't know yet... I guess we'll just see won't we?

later kids... ^_^ ciao...

Thursday, April 06, 2006

where was I?

how do I let the feelings that so consume me out in the open?

how do I let go of the past that so haunts me?

am I forever stuck in this place of confusion? like a soul drifting in Limbo?

where do I find the peace that I so yearn for?

where have you been all this time? why only now have you made yourself known to me?

why can I not let this go? ye Gods! like Shakespeare's Romeo, I am fortune's fool!

sunlight... where are you? sunlight... where are you?

here we go again...

what?! me? blogging? OMG!!

The last time I started something like this, I was in a different world.... Now I'm in the world of call centers and the Makati morning pedestrian life... etc... in other words, I'm working now...

I'm working and studying at the same time and I love it!

I gotta go do something else right now, but I'll be back...

There's another reason why I'm doing this again, but that's a different story for a different time... till then,

Au revoir boys and girls...