I'm sorry...

I guess that's about all I can say...

I'm a mess... I mean, really... Do you ever get that feeling when one day it's all perfect, and then out of nowhere everything suddenly falls apart? And then you get trapped in a predicament so totally out of control that you just want to hide under your bed and stay there until the earth swallows you up.

That's kind of what I'm feeling right now.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I am sorry for my inadequacies... I am sorry for my inability to fulfill the promises that I meant to keep... I am sorry for my failure to accomplish the things I set out to do... I'll get there... but I'm sorry because I have to keep the people involved waiting...

All my life, I've always been the victim... as selfish as it may seem... I kinda want to be the villain for a while...


oh bruised heart, how selfish you have become...oh battered soul, where is your spirit now?